getting really sentimental (it's almost over)

hayayay...
huhuhu...
hehe ;p
drama...but seriously.

while surfing the net, supposedly just to e-mail my thesis groupmates....
I realized, shucks....I have only 1 MORE WEEK left in Ateneo. (Hehe drama, but after this week, finals week na ng seniors...and it's all over...scary, happy,anxious)

There are lots of things on my mind.
My mind seems to lose control when I try to focus and concentrate and close my eyes...especially during hypnosis class.

So many thoughts. Was I able to make the most of my college life? Do I have any regrets? What have I learned? How have I changed? Am I ready to surf bigger waves? Will I meet my friends again? It's like I'm seeing the "welcome" banner of the rest of my life.
hehe OA...but that's how I really feel.

I realized, there are a lot of decisions and changes I will soon be faced with...and just thinking about it right now overwhelms me.

I really want to go to the Silent Retreat. =) That decision, I'm happy about.

I still have to visit Nanay and light a candle for her. May she rest in peace.

So much emotions. It's valentines day tom! ;) share the love! hahaha lesbos na! =p nyak....i'll stop making that a defense mechanism.
I'm still discerning about things. Emotions can be deceiving...that's what my friend says...but I realized to truly understand, one must assess her feelings. It's not like I will dwell in it...but I should really listen.

Anyways, I feel the love vibe! =p oh diba?! haha I just feel happy but it doesn't have to be because I'm in a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship. (Puwede rin but I don't want to hurry it up for the sake of...haha, I can't deny the fact that I think there's such a thing as senior syndrome talaga...rationalization: according to Erikson's stages of socioemotional dev, after identity vs. identiy confusion, the next stage is intimacy vs. isolation =p) I'm just grateful for the people around me who make me feel loved. Hugs and kisses make my day ;p especially from little kids...(di ako pedo ah!) therapeutic! good thing sandy is here so i have an unlimited stock of those! =p

now, I feel better. I have more drive to make the most of this week.
Exciting! =) STrains elections! Final papers! Busybee! Plus....I remembered...have to fix my proposal for a new Psyche structure! Woohoo! no more sleepy head...work work work! this is the last stretch! =)

for those reading this, i just want to thank you for being part of my college experience (hehe i know ang drama...but i mean it.) especially to the STrainers. Mahal ko talaga ang mga STrainers - from the dinostrainers to the present. =) I've never been touched this much by a group of people. I learned how to love unconditionally because of this org. (ops...hehe not the issue you might be thinking about ok...org nga eh...=p di lang one person)

that's it. =)