tabula rasa ( to love, infinity and beyond!) =j

before the year comes to an end, there are some realizations I want to share...

+I'm grateful for the blessings God has showered me amidst trying times.
I wouldn't have coped up with everything if not for my faith. Prayers are powerful.

+I'm so happy and grateful for my life and for all those who love me and whom I love. Yes, I'm still alive and kicking! ;) (still stubborn,crazy and silly!) and I really appreciate and love all the people that have touched my life...

My family: I know we're all not perfect...but despite all the shortcomings each one of us has...I'm so grateful for the support that we have shown each other. I hope forgiveness and love will flourish in our hearts. After all the hurts, pains, joy and laughter...I think this family is destined to become better with the grace of God. I love each one of you dearly - Mommy, Papa, Ate Jack, Cathy, Anne, Sandy...I will always be here for you guys.

RD: Despite the differences (and I have to admit there were times I really couldn't understand you and we probably had opposite views...although I never really confronted you) we've made it through so much...from the conversations and lunches when we had our practicum, the frustrations, anxieties, problems, joys and silly things we've shared to each other I have grown to appreciate and love you more. I hope we'll be able to influence each other to become better people. Thanks for all the insights you've shared with me...I've learned from them. Thanks for allowing me to be your best friend. =)

O: Thanks for the remarkable friendship...for listening to my crazy, silly thoughts, for the tears we've shared, for being there just when I needed you the most. From the frustrating moments, embarassing moments and confusing moments, we have shared it all. We have grown and changed. I'm pretty sure that we will be sharing more happy, probably some sad, surprising moments together. You will always be my number one girlfriend! ;)

Abro: Thanks for our weird friendship =p haha despite everything we've been through, I'm glad we've managed to stay close friends. Thanks for being there during some of my low moments and for the comforting words you have given me. I'm grateful for you and the rest of the cot peeps (Poy, Kev, Kay, Luipox.)

T: Thanks for being honest with me. Thank you for sharing yourself to all of us. Thanks for being so passionate with what you're doing. Thanks for making me smile and making me hope that despite everything - the trials, frustrations, anxieties - everything's going to be alright. Thanks for being patient and understanding. Sorry if I have ever hurt you or made you feel bad because of the way that I talk. Although, I've been irritated with how confusing you can also be sometimes (I try to understand because you've got lots of things on your mind, lots of responsibilities) you're still my No Frontiers guy ;p

Jaybo: Although, you don't seem to be there all the time...you've managed to comfort me with your presence. I know that you are one person I can depend on when I really need help. Thanks for being the person that you are and for accepting crazy me =p I hope you'll find..or stumble upon your Sassy girl...please don't be a sassy boy...you're such a hot chick e haha kidding! I know you're destined for greater things. =) basta, walang kalimutan kapag sikat ka na (either as a hot rocker chick or management guru)...haha

the STrainers (new,old and alumni):
Indeed, you are my second family. I have grown to love you guys amidst the diversity among us. Thank you for loving STrains as much as I do. Thank you for loving me. They say every batch of STrainers have their own culture that's different from the past...I have been witness of that. From our hyper batch when I was a freshie, the pre's and mre's, the "Itaas mo" days, to the "Ibigay mo" days, STrains serves! knuckle synergy punches (there i tried giving it a name)...one thing is constant...it's the love , idealism and hope that binds us all. Continue loving, continue hoping and continue working for our vision. Love the work! Love the people!

the TNT Core '04:
Berto, super duper thank you for the friendship. =) we've been through a fast but challenging roller coaster ride. It was fun and fulfilling. For the crunch time, the overnights, the brownfriends, the super late/early morning phone conversations to discuss things, the perspiration and frustrations we've shared I have discovered what a wonderful person you are...with your oh so soft voice and sexy blengblengs...haha. I've grown to cherish you guys. Thank you for sharing yourself to me. Congratulations for our right decision of choosing the core. We may have our shortcomings but I know we all learned from the experience. I'm proud of our babies (Go Ria, Jehl and Joboy! Good luck and God bless next year!) =)

+I'm sorry for having hurt you (yellow). I never meant for that to happen. I had my doubts I've been holding back. It just exploded. I loved you and you'll never know how much. I just hope you're doing better now. I've learned from our mistakes. Thank you for everything. I hope we could still be friends.

+ Nanay, you will always be in my heart. Salamat po sa walang sawa at dakilang pagmamahal ninyo sa amin. Sorry po sa lahat ng kasalanan ko sa inyo. Mahal na mahal na mahal ko po kayo. Sana kung saan man kayo, maligaya na kayo sa Maykapal. Huwag po kayo mag-aalala, aalagaan ko ang lahat ng mga kapatid ko pati si Papa, Mommy and Daddy. I will never forget you. Salamat sa pagpapalaki sa akin ng maayos. May you rest in peace.

as the year comes to an end, I look back, knowing that I have learned so much and I'm ready to face bigger challenges ahead. I have come to realize that the secret to living life to the fullest is by loving with all your heart and trusting in God. Despite all the heartaches, pains, frustrations and failures...there is still hope. Love endures. Love changes people. It sure changed me.

I pray that everyone will have a blessed New year's eve! =)

I pray for all those people who are suffering right now..for the victims of the calamities all around. May You give them strength and hope to be able to go through everything. May you give us the grace to help these people in every way we can. Thank you Lord.

"Fall in love, Stay in love and it will decide everything." -Fr. Pedro Arrupe