frustrating (why can't they see i'm grown-up already)

argh! i'm not sure if "ang yabang ko." it's not like that. it's just frustrating. i've always thought that i've never really gone out that much at all.

as in, ako ang baduy palagi. the cinderella...the one who always leaves earlier or just drops by. bitin na lang palagi. hay...
i know i can't have it all... but then again why do i always have it half baked! it's bad..that i don't seem grateful for all my blessings....but i guess it's also my senior syndrome acting upon my emotions...

it's my last year. can't my dad just allow me this time? i just went to one night of caroling. (well, he's reason was i'm too tired from the first night so i shouldn't push it...but i wasn't that tired....) then the block Y christmas party....i haven't been attending our christmas party completely...that last i remember was when i was in second year and i just passed by!) (he tells me it's really dangerous these days because it's christmas and all the bad guys are out to get money)

hay...eheheh why can't I be treated like an adult! haha so ironic, i'm whining right now like a deprived kid! =p huhuhu i just want to make the most of my senior year in college. after all, i won't be spending much time with these people after. shucks....bawi na lang next time...as i always say. i just hope i really do make up for it before i graduate.

i'm really sorry for arguing with my dad. I know he just worries about me...but my sentiments with the senior syndrome is taking a hold of my emotions.

tsk...if only i had a car. it would also be easier. (but then again, my sister tells me to look for a boyfriend who has a car, like RD! Kuya nicko's super nice..ehehe they took me to eastwood last tues to have dinner! =p yumyum, superbowl! nyak hehe but it's hard for me to ask favors like that from guys..) haha i want to be an independent woman haha (all the women so independent...lala) =p but i'm ironic..i don't like guys who don't seem to care also.

anyways, i want to go to Divi! haha but i'll just commute. shucks....i'm not sure if i'll go or not...who I'm going to ask to go with me! =p O is busy today. oh well, let's see. really have to buy my gifts!

"Ngunit kahit na anong mangyari,ang pag-ibig sana'y mag-hari....sapat ng si Hesus ang kasama mo...
Tuloy na tuloy pa rin ang Pasko" =)

Maligayang Pasko!