clouded

my thoughts have been clouded by my emotions.

Although LT3F helps...i'm not doing it consistently.

I have lots of insights to share but I can't seem to get myself to write on my blog. Sometimes, I realized, it's better to keep your emotions to yourself or atleast I should tell it to few people. I'm getting old. Eek...I'm getting boring ;p I have to take things lightly.

Balance. Having a listening, humble heart is not an easy thing to have. My patience is being stretched to the extreme limits. I feel the sores of being a "gymanst."

One thing, I'm happy about...I think me and "Chinky" are friends again...I greeted him last Friday and he actually replied. Makulit na siya. Although not too much to the point of putting too much meaning into it...which is good. =) I hope that what he told me was true....(Somethings never change =)) I hope I'll be able to maintain my resiliency, patience, optimism even in confusing times.

I've been running away from my subconscious...it's showing up on my dreams. I shouldn't shove away my emotions - both anger, hate and love.
I need to gain more self-awareness and "centering" as Fr. Bu says from our hypnosis & hypnotherapy class. It's so exciting.

I have lots of other concerns but I feel lazy to write about it. I'm thinking of applying to Xavier and Ateneo Grade School but I'm also considering Corporate HR and HR consulting firms. I feel apprehensive to apply because I fear getting rejected. But I'm trying to go beyond this fear.

I like the song: Your Heart Today ;)

This is all babbling. I just wanted to write an entry but I find what I did a bit dragging. I like writing on my personal journal more. I can't wait to write and write and reflect in the silent retreat on March.