overloaded, i need to focus

So many things have been going around me and within me.

I'm soooo stressed.
At first I thought of how college was a lot harder than teaching.
There would be sleepless nights, cramming and lots and lots of pressure.
It's either you submit it on time or nothing.

I ate up my own words.

Hayayay! Super stress.
It's because my work seems to be never-ending.
I suppose this is only a paradigm I'm looking at right now.
But still. I always wake up at 6am.
I feel like whining and yet I don't have the energy to do so.
I just want to have a break.
I want to just bum around for one day.

hmmm....I wrote this probably a few weeks ago. Right now, I don't know what to say to describe how I feel. It's a new month! =) It's the first ber month! Before, we all know it, Christmas is already in the air.

I'm happy but I'm distracted with everything I can't seem to focus. I can't seem to prioritize. It's hard to say no to something. It's hard to choose and decide. I feel very anxious.

For some reason, I think part of me knows what to do but I don't do it. There's still a part of me that wants to try out everything because of the fear of losing something. That was what I was like in college since in high school I felt I didn't open up at all to the opportunities around me. Now, I have to move on. It's hard. It's scary. I don't know if I'm making sense. These are just a few feelings I have that I think I've been running away from. I better face myself honestly. On the other hand, I also enjoy simple pleasures like watching the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants with my close friend and my sister. Crying feels good. haha walang structure ito...just typing all the thoughts and feelings that come to mind. I'm hurrying but part of me is not.

Oh no, my ate is here already. Gotta go. I will write an entry wit more sense. =p

floating

Waah! I've been so harassed with all the papers I have to check. All the short writing activities piled up plus the penmanship stuff. My goodness gracious!

(La boo hoo la ha.....like what jackal said in the listening skill builder story I read a while ago. My goodness! I nearly lost my voice from doing 2 LSBs.)

Haha cute. One of my boys likes me. =p
I just hope that I could really be a good influence on them and not just someone they fancy.

Lalalala... I feel light. This could probably be due to the lack of sleep. I slept at 1am already because I was soo worried with everything I had to check. I realized although I'm stressed, I'm not very stressed. I find my work right now less stressful than when I was in college. I feel less pressure for some reason although I'm motivated to do well. (Well fine, I'm cramming a bit. I'm always easily distracted. Tsk.)

Anyways, I'm going on babbling again. I just want to write.
I had a few thoughts I want to remember.
I liked Fr. Johnny Go's homily this Sunday.
It talks about 3 things in our "storm jar" - COURAGE, AWARENESS of GOD and FAITH.
I have to take courage.

Grabe, ang bilis bilis ng panahon. I remember when I was so naive and blissful with life.
Talking to old friends makes me feel better.
I miss being a kid.
But I'm happy to teach kids. ;)

Anyways, I have lots of stuff to do.
I better leave this workroom before I get kicked out. (We only have until max of 7:30pm here...haha sinusulit ang internet access ;p)