maturity

wow! =) hehe lots of changes, lots of experiences.

i don't know how to begin so i'll just start.

i'm soo happy because i believe i'm 95% sure with regard to my application to Xavier School as a grade school teacher.

God is really good. ;) I feel blessed. I was able to go through my class demo, then panel interview after...smoothly.

I'm really excited. (haha kinikilig ako! =p)
But at the same time, I don't want to be carried away by my emotions.

There are somethings that I'm also grateful for....I can't believe (whehe) I'm becoming more mature with regard to many things.
--> I was able to confront someone really important to me about adult things that are unspoken of...I was really apprehensive. I thought I couldn't do it. I prayed and with God's grace, I was able to do it.

Although another part of me is hesitant...that I'm starting to be preachy. I had a debate last night with one of my good friends about God. He did not believe in God and I was surprised. I'm not sure if I handled the whole argument the best way I could. It's just that I see things differently and I want to share the joy and peace one finds in realizing that God is here with us...no matter what religion. Spirituality is important. Even Pope John Paul (May he rest in peace) was an advocate of ecumenism. It's not anymore about the Roman Catholic Church only. It's about seeing that there is something more. But I realized...I should push it. People are different. I could have a hard time figuring out Chemistry problems but another person would be puzzled why I didn't like Chem. All I know is, we are all called by God and one way or another (my friend may be an atheist right now but) we cannot deny His presence.

Anyways, enough of that. Hihi
other points about maturity:
--> I have been attending a Christian cell group for quite sometime now. Although I stopped for one month (in March since I had other plans) I've started attending again. I have to admit that at the start, I was a bit apprehensive. What was I doing there, given that I'm a Catholic? hehe wala lang...but I'm starting to enjoy it. Our topic last saturday was about Spiritual Maturity. What is it? How does one become spiritually mature?
(i'll spare the lecture on it for next time ;p haha ayoko naman na parang masyadong heavy yung blog entry ko...but seriously i think it makes sense it's just that i have to shorten my entry since i have to do other important things and i think this is loaded as it is)

--> living alone for 3 days in our townhouse...as in without a maid! i wash the dirty clothes (my clothes and my dad's clothes). my favorite household equipment would be the washing machine! haha. i cook for myself. i'm cleaning the clutter since we haven't fixed everything after we've moved in and basically i do it all by myself. the place is starting to look more like someone really lives here!

--> how i handled an awkward situation. (i realized, ang tanda ko na para maging immature about these things. besides, i believe that my friend deserves that kind of maturity from me.)

--> not easily frightened about things anymore...or to put it clearly...i don't let fears take hold of me and motivate my behavior (Thank you talaga Lord for your graces ;))

--> haha and one last thing (hindi talaga mature pero feeling adult ;p) nakipag-inuman na rin ako finally with STrainers although i just had 2 bottles of beer. makulit lang na kuwentuhan at debate =p

although i know i'm still in the process.
i've made some mistakes.
i'm trying to learn from it.
i'm sorry.
trust me.