throbbing headache (revised)

i'm here right now at our new house.
typing away, trying to bear with the not-so-well functioning keyboard.
i have to press the spacebar harder cos it doesn't seem to work well.
anyways, i feel a bout of whining about to come.
well, actually all the worrying in my mind is starting to get to me. ack...this keyboard is streessing me out.labo.haha.ganito na lang ang type ko. ok,fine. anyways, i'll fix this
later. i just need to vent out all these mix of emotions starting to stir up inside me its getting cloudy.
hehe ang drama ko talaga. i feel uncomfortable. i feel alone but not so alone. i feel happy but also sad. i'm worried but thanks to my quiet moments each day, i bear with things. i don't want to blame my older sis for my headache but it seems all the worrying of the people around me is getting to me.my older sis worries about things to be done at home, then my 3rd sister worries about her tests in school..and it just makes my head ache and throb.
i plan to do lots of stuff. i want to do lots of stuff but i also worry. bad. i shouldn't be the one being influenced by all those worrying. i should try to influence them. oh wells... i'm getting dizzy with no spaces.

i'll just sleep so that the headache will go away. meditating helps! ;p i like it. taking a bath is also a stress reliever! ;) thank you Lord for the small stuff that sometimes i take for granted.

ok,now i'm sleepy. good night;)

Panginoon,
turuan mo akong maging bukas palad
turuan mo akong maglingkod sa iyo.

Slowly, I stop. I breathe.
I feel the cold breeze on my skin.
The warm rays of the sun are caressing my face.
It's like a dream but it's so real.
I feel my heart singing,
humming softly,
crying sweetly.
How blessed could someone be?
Why do you love me?
I feel ugly. I'm so pathetic and I falter.
I fall down, cry:
"Oh, father!"

All the time I have been dwelling,
trapped in myself
When you're right in front,
reaching out and calling me.

Praise you Jesus Christ, my Savior.
You are the Way, the Truth and Light.

I close my eyes and still you fill me with your presence.

I breathe in. I breathe out. I open my eyes.
I'm alive. I'm loved. I am empowered!