right in front of me

i watched Munting Tinig the other day. I liked it. (besides the fact that Alessandra de Rossi didn't realistically look like she knew how to play the flute...wrong way of blowing! =)) I sort of saw myself in her shoes.

I want to be a teacher I want to teach little kids. I want to inspire people and I want to help the less fortunate.

I've thought of actually joining the JVP. Besides helping out, I like adventure and extraordinary challenges! ;)

But, one main factor that hinders me from so doing is my family.

Don't get me wrong, I love my family dearly but sometimes I think they demand so much that it hinders me from going out of this circle to help others. Sometimes it just frustrates me...I think we are fortunate enough and other people need more help.

But then I stop there. I realize that I should try to help the people around me first before I extend myself to others. How can I expect to influence and help other people when I haven't fully helped and influenced my family to be better?

Then comes the issue...why am I not effectively helping my sisters, our family? It's probably because the change has to start from me.

As Gandhi put it:
"You must be the change you wish to see in this world."

But sometimes it's just so tempting to be catatonic, to be indifferent and to stay asleep. it seems more exciting when you help out in some new place with new people. However, I realized it could also be exciting and challenging to inspire the people around me. It's about perspective.

I just hope I see it more clearly...that the change has to start from me.

" I can see clearly now, the rain has gone....all of the bad feelings have disappeared. Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind...it's gonna be a bright, bright, sunshiny day!" ;p

after all...there is always a chance to change ;) as long as you're alive.

ok, hocus focus! =p